The Meditations of My Heart

I don't usually blog twice in one day, but today will be the exception. I needed to post about this before I forget, which happens seemingly more often these days... I got this idea from another blog I follow. If you enjoy writing or need inspiration for various topics of writing... visit Scribblings Blog . A girl named Emily runs it, I met her through my school. Her posts are usually quite interesting. Cool Names... Girl Names: Catalina Caliape (cu-LI-a-pe)* Laramie Odessa Carnelian Sienna Aleria (sounds like a disease) Marielle Zelia Leila Taea * Jonnay (John-a)* Georgia Raine (Should be Georgia Peach) Natasha Teagan* Nadia* Nalini Zaylie Boy Names: Dallas* Pendelton (yikes!) Slade* Azure* Zevlin Zalen Hadley Danico Onyx Badger (Say what? lol) Thicket Drake Skylar Ryder* Keaton Tate* Caruso Jaden* *-my favorites What are your favorites? Leave me a comment....

Flowers. Flowers. Flowers. I went outside yesterday to see how our bulb flowers were doing, and to my surprise, they are much farther along than I had anticipated. Here are some pictures. Our Tulip Buds ^ Daffodils^ More buds than last year ^ Prettyness! So Yea, needless to say, flowers excite me. For me, there is no greater feeling than planting a seed, watering it, and faithfull waiting on God to grow it. Its my favorite way to commune with God. With out his blessing on my garden, nothing will grow. This year, my mom told me that I could plant whatever in the beds around the outside of our house! I am so excited! The Zennias and (hopefully) Maestro Slavia's will grow again. If not, I am going to have to find some seeds for them, because they are my absolute favoites. Other than Roses and tulips of course. Today is going to consist of school, softball, and working on the baby afgan I am crocheting. I will post pics of it when I get a little farther along. I start...

This past week has been rather difficult for me to process and deal with. I have been an emotional wreck. It's just one of those seasons of life where it seems like everything is in opposition of you, your heart, and your desires. I'm waging war against Satan in a huge spiritual battle, and it is beginning to drain the life out of me. For those of you who have ever read Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl , you know the struggles that Anne goes through. They are especially evident in the very last entry of her diary. (If you own the book, I suggest you go reread the last entry. It is one of the most beautiful things I have ever read in my life.) I feel kind of like that, yet in a slightly different way. She is trying to figure out who she is, but I know who I am. I just have to find where I belong in life. I am the kind of person who likes to have a plan of action before doing something. I am running the race that all Christians run, but am quickly coming to a fork in the ro...

Ok . So this may be a post that most of you don't really care to read. It's about how odd the female teen celebs are. I'm typing while I'm listening to all of the Taylor Swift music I have. I love it. It's one of those albums you could just listen to over and over. However, I can't help but thinking about every song and how unrealistic they are. It also bothers me that in nearly half of her songs, she sings about a guy begging at her feet for her to forgive/come back/love. Honestly, who would ever do that? I think she's really pretty, but esteems herself way too much. Her and Miley Cyrus aer pretty much on the same page but in different ways. While they both have really cool voices, both girls are quite diva- ish and really have no right to be. For people like Mariah Carey and Madonna, who have worked for a long time to become what they are, Diva is pretty much understandable. But Taylor Swift and Miley Cyrus are only 17 and 16. They may have...

I can't wait for our tulips to start blooming this year! (This was the only one that bloomed last year) It's been nearly a week since my last post. That is due to the overwhelming week I have had. Monday and Tuesday were PSSA's, Wednesday was catch up from the previous two days and Dill's LAX game against Baldwin (Peters Won, I think the score was 6-2 or something). Then yesterday I babysat in the morning, came home, did school work, then left for a doctor's appointment. Since it was in the city, Mom and I decided to go to Whole Foods. It was a cool afternoon. It wasn't until today that I have had time to take an Algebra II test that was assigned for last Friday, and the oral quiz in spanish that was due Monday, but the really cool thing about my school is that they give us a two week cushion to submit the assignment for full credit. They also offer a lot of extra credit. Sounds great, right? Well it is, but there is so much work that it's crazy! On the ups...

Wow. If you have never visited National Geographic's Website for pictures... you must do so! It is incredible!!! Here is a link to their downloadable wallpaper page. http://ngm.nationalgeographic.com/wallpaper/download As I was browsing through their pictures just now, I was amazed! I want to learn how to photograph things just like that! It makes me want to get their magazine... which was probably the point of offering free wall papers for your computer screen. Just a cool thing I thought I would share with you all.

Thats kind of how I have been feeling lately. Life has been happening. I've been dealing with it. It moves on no matter how much work you have or how yicky you feel. You just learn to deal with it. School never stops... nor do little siblings. Well of course unless they are sick. But even then, you can't desire that one down day because you know that the next day will be two days worth of normal energy hashed out into one. (I'm glad we aren't dealing with that right now! lol) This week has been kind of unusual. Which I am so glad for. I have been able to actually talk to my mom this week. I haven't been couped up in my room from 9-5 doing work. Yesterday was insane. I was absolutely bizourke (sp?). I was just in one of those untameable insane negative moods. It was like anything my mom would say to appease me I refuted with "Aw. that might work... but I don't like chickpeas...bananas...cashews...peanuts...[insert food i don't like here...]" It was ...

"What We've Been Doing..." Today was a Sunday that we normally don't have. I woke up late (9:30) just as Dad and my four younger siblings were headed out the door for church. Realizing that I would never be ready in time to even make it to the sermon, my mom and I decided to stay home and enjoy the silence. I must say that it was quite odd to be watching Zoey 101 and the Style Channel at 10:30 on a Sunday morning, but it was good. Just laying around making fun of the plastic ladies on "Glamour's 25 Fashion Do's and Don'ts" is very fun! This afternoon, Mom tried a new recipe... Thumbprint cookies. They are so crunchy and good! (Though I don't think she likes how crisp they are.) I have been working on revamping her baking site... which is almost done! Also, I have finally discovered how to use Gimp 2. Oh my gosh. It is so similar to Photoshop, but it's a lot more user friendly... and it's free! The coolest part is that it...

"I love catching my family when they don't know I'm looking. Those are the photos that I look back on and remember. Life just as it was at that moment. The little things that we think we'll remember, but hardly ever do. Those little pieces that, together, make up our story." -Cookie from Smart Cookie Photography

[ "Ben, I know for sure it was here when I left to go to the bathroom." ] Ben and I decided to bake chocolate chocolate chip cookies this afternoon. We always like to bake together, and he is actually pretty good at helping me with it. He listens, usually. Today, he did well. The same as usual. I like to try and sit him down on the couch after most of the mixing is over, just because its easier that way. So I turned on Little Bill and he was doing fine, so I snuck out of the livingroom to take to cookies out of the oven. I try to catch it before the timer goes off, because as soon as he hears the beep it's all over. I caught it and put the cookies on the cooling rack. He did come in, but not until after I had put the next pan in the oven. He was longing for one of the steamy cookies on the rack, you could just see it in his eyes. Then I realized I had to go to the bathroom really bad. So after telling him multiple times that the cookies were hot and not to tou...

I was tagged by Sara at My Simple Blessed Life. So here is my list of random things about me. 1. I love texting 2. I have recently joined facebook and am addicted (haha. not really compared to Annie and Dilly) 3. I enjoy watching cheesy movies :-) 4. Chocolate and Coffee are the cure for most ales. 5. I can't believe that Camp Rock makes me think differently about Demi Lavato. (Shes actually kind of cool) 6. I have recently been liking music LOUD. 7. I sing all the time. Always. 8. I like chocolate chip ice cream. 9. I like the pain that comes when I work out. 10. Long walks late at night in the summer with one of your best friends is the best thing ever. (With the warm weather, I have been missing a certian someone recently.) 11. My favorite night is Taco Night. 12. I love watching Talledega Nights. (A family fave. don't even ask why!) 13. Fasting works in ways I never imaginged it would. Its hard, but so worth it. 14. I hate kid/teen drama. Its stupid. 15. Tatiana is the weir...

"In the Book of Life" -Charlie Brown Well I never thought that it would happen to me. I thought that the decision would come easy. Like I would wake up one morning and just know. But unfortunately, I have to go through the same struggle that every other teenager faces at this time in their life. What do I want to do with the rest of my life? When I was little, I was sure that I wanted to become a doctor. I like to help people, and the science interested me. But over the years that thought faded and other things drifted in and out. Now, here I am. Thinking I want to go to school for Behavioral Sciences, wanting to do something with photography. Maybe I want to own a bakery, start a flower business, become a rock star. If it was up to me, I would do it all. Everything I mentioned is something I really love. But I am not Super Woman and that, my friend, presents some obvious problems... other than the fact that I would never f...

Well this week I am back to the "cheese diet". Though its not really a diet. Its a way of life for me. I wake up and eat cheese, I eat cheese with lunch, snack, dinner, late snack... on and on.... haha. Well it used to be that bad, but not this time around. I am trying to balance my protien intake with carbs to make the perfect food for digesting. But who really cares about that... hahaha. I am feeling quite rejuvenated by the nice cup of coffee I just had. I put some light vanilla soymilk in it with a little bit of caramel to sweeten it. Oh my. It's hard not to drink the whole pot. (Now I know what Alaina was saying about her grandma drinking multiple pots a day...) On another note... I made an appointment to have my wisdom teeth taken out yesterday. Officially April 7th. The day before I get my week of spring break. Hopefully I will be one of those rare cases that recovers in two days. Oh wouldn't that be nice. lol. I am partially looking forward to ...

Ode to Alcoholic Beverages By Rebekah Krayzel Oh sweet cool margherita No other drink could be sweeta And to my icy light beer You strip away my fear To my smooth strawberry daquiri Seeing becomes a difficulty And an old bottle of wine You soothe my nerves just fine To my bright, red bloody mary My face no longer seems scary I would never dream of using you as leverage Thus completes my ode to alcoholic beverages

...that is such a lame title for my blog post. :-( This weekend was thoroughly enjoyed. I got a milk shake with Dillon and shared a big BIG bowl of strawberry short cake with a friend on Friday. (we were on a sugar high! haha ) On Saturday , I wrote another psyc . paper, made chocolate chip cookies, and just hung out. YPCG Saturday was pretty good too. We learned about the difference between Wisdom and Conviction. (plus erin and I giggled like the whole time. sure. we were two of the oldest there, and we were the immature ones! it was a fun memory though.) Then yesterday. Oh yesterday. The day of insane amounts of fun and pain! I went skiing for the first time. ever. It was great. As soon as I got onto the first trail, I fell off the side into the mud and ripped Alaina's snow pants . I got up and said to my dad "WHO GETS MUDDY WHILE YOU GO SKIING!?!" I was so embarrassed, but it was pretty funny. I got the hang of it by the second time down the mounta...

Ode To Chocolate~ By Sara Gorecki Cocoa or creamer;you're always so sweet. or even in plain bars you are always a treat in cookies, in pies, in coffee and cake; but you're used alot more than only just to bake. You soothe jangled nerves, and when i need a friend; you stay on my sides until the very end. I try to get rid of you, but to no avail I always crave you when staring at a scale! You sweet talk me to you, and I cannot resist, though i know when i check my weight i will be quite miffed. But for all your bad points, dude, you really rock so for your feelings sake, this is the end of my mock. ~Dear Chocolate, As much as it pains me to type this out, you have to go. We have beenseeing too much of each other lately, and what started out as aplatonic relationship has taken a wrong turn. When I saw you withanother person, it hurt deeply. Knowing that I was just the one ofmany you tempted with your colorful wrapper and fantastic shapescalded my feelings just like the one time I ...

Ode to Coffee Meghan Gorecki Oh Coffee, my coffee! How do I love thee? Let me count the ways! You are warm and sweet when I am not When your creator is flipped to 'on' you're always nice and hot! When I am crabby you soothe many a ruffled nerve Each morning how many people do you faithfully serve? Caffeine is your best feature It makes me feel human-a happy creature! Lattes, espresso, cappichino or just plain black.... You always taste so good and flavor you never lack! So my ode to coffee is almost done... But allow me to utter another accolade-just one Coffee, my coffee, is the joy of my morning! And you, dear coffee, with or without sweetness or milk, I would never, ever, think of abandoning!