Oh Sunday.

This past week has been rather difficult for me to process and deal with. I have been an emotional wreck. It's just one of those seasons of life where it seems like everything is in opposition of you, your heart, and your desires. I'm waging war against Satan in a huge spiritual battle, and it is beginning to drain the life out of me. For those of you who have ever read Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl, you know the struggles that Anne goes through. They are especially evident in the very last entry of her diary. (If you own the book, I suggest you go reread the last entry. It is one of the most beautiful things I have ever read in my life.) I feel kind of like that, yet in a slightly different way. She is trying to figure out who she is, but I know who I am. I just have to find where I belong in life. I am the kind of person who likes to have a plan of action before doing something. I am running the race that all Christians run, but am quickly coming to a fork in the road. I need God's help and have been fervently asking for it, but I just don't seem to be getting any answers. From what the Bible says, God is like that. He doesn't answer to us. He answers to only him. It makes me feel so dumb for giving God a "deadline." You just can't do that. Well, I suppose you can, but you will probably end up in the same boat as me... rowing and rowing and rowing on one side so you go in circles.

So with Mr.P's sermon fresh on my mind, I am going to look at praying a little differently this week. Not praying for selfish gain or biasedly, but rather for Him to show me how handle my current situations :-)