.That Time.

"In the Book of Life" -Charlie Brown

Well I never thought that it would happen to me. I thought that the decision would come easy. Like I would wake up one morning and just know. But unfortunately, I have to go through the same struggle that every other teenager faces at this time in their life. What do I want to do with the rest of my life?

When I was little, I was sure that I wanted to become a doctor. I like to help people, and the science interested me. But over the years that thought faded and other things drifted in and out. Now, here I am. Thinking I want to go to school for Behavioral Sciences, wanting to do something with photography. Maybe I want to own a bakery, start a flower business, become a rock star. If it was up to me, I would do it all. Everything I mentioned is something I really love. But I am not Super Woman and that, my friend, presents some obvious problems... other than the fact that I would never fit into the outfit :-)



When you see what kinds of struggles people who are Christians go through in college, you know that it will be difficult to stand up for what you believe in. When you are taking classes about how people think, why they do what they do, and why things exist, I can only imagine that it gets worse.



Then I see the struggles of photographers. Its not a very demanding job. Though it does allow for artistic expression, will it pay for my bills in the end?



So. At the end of a veeery long day, I have decided to throw in my towel, and give all of it up to God. There really is no point in trying to do it myself, because in myself I know that I will fail at whatever I decide to do in the end. Whatever happens to my life, I know that it will be what God has for me. So for now, I guess I just have to wait.