Freshness. Oldness. And everything in between.

Wow. I can't believe that I have made it on the earth for 18 years!

I remember when I was little I used to be SO afraid of dying young and not get to experience life. I'm not sure where the fear stemmed from, but I think it was a natural thing. It was probably because I was unsure of whether I would go to Heaven or Hell, and Hell was a really scary place for a little girl (and a big girl for that matter). It was a deeply rooted anxiousness that I found myself thinking about all the time late at night when I was supposed to be going to sleep. I would get so worked up thinking about it that I would start crying. Looking back on it, I realize that it was because I didn't trust God with my future.

It wasn't until just recently that I made the comparison between then and now. I am sure of my salvation, so I'm not afraid of dying, but I am scared of my future because I can't see the road around this bend. For all I know, it could be a plush meadow or it could be a stormy river. But I DO know that God loves me and that he has my best in mind. He is writing my story for His glory and even if the road brings me to a stormy river, He will equip me with the tools I need to get across alive. He shows me that in my life every SINGLE day because I ask him to. (even in things as simple as him providing countless babysitting jobs for me each week.) I am so in love with Him and so amazed by how much he loves me. It causes me to have true joy and happiness in who I am knowing that he created me to love Him and that it's a reciprocated thing- not one-sided. I wish everyone in the whole entire world could know how fulfilling this feeling is. It makes me feel full and allows me to know that it doesn't matter where I go to college or what I do for the rest of my life... I have to take it bend by bend and rely solely on the fact that he has my good in mind.

Check out my Flickr site for an update on my 65 Days of Gratefulness Project :)
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  1. sarah elaineFebruary 1, 2010 at 6:43 PM

    happy birthday, my friend!
    I'm so sorry I didn't get to wish you a happy birthday in person yet... :/
    And don't worry-- I didn't forget about your birthday; my gift to you is coming soon! :)

    sending birthday love your way--
    sarah elaine

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  2. SueFebruary 1, 2010 at 7:14 PM

    What a great post, Danielle! Whatever He calls you to, He WILL equip you for...He is faithful to all of His promises! Isn't that feeling of complete trust amazing?! I remember the first time I heard how many times the Bible tells us not to worry....I was blown away....thinking God is really try to tell me something! Looking forward to lunch on Sunday!

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