Life...happens.

Thats kind of how I have been feeling lately. Life has been happening. I've been dealing with it. It moves on no matter how much work you have or how yicky you feel. You just learn to deal with it. School never stops... nor do little siblings. Well of course unless they are sick. But even then, you can't desire that one down day because you know that the next day will be two days worth of normal energy hashed out into one. (I'm glad we aren't dealing with that right now! lol)

This week has been kind of unusual. Which I am so glad for. I have been able to actually talk to my mom this week. I haven't been couped up in my room from 9-5 doing work. Yesterday was insane. I was absolutely bizourke (sp?). I was just in one of those untameable insane negative moods. It was like anything my mom would say to appease me I refuted with "Aw. that might work... but I don't like chickpeas...bananas...cashews...peanuts...[insert food i don't like here...]"

It was nuts. I feel bad for my mom. She has to put up with my intense mood swings and tears at the drop of a hat. She has been handling it like a champ though. When I cry because my food feels waxy... she's there to wipe it off and slice it for me. When I cry because all I eat is cheese, she is there to fix me something to eat. When I talk my self in circles and cry because I got nowhere, she's there to make a short-term plan to get me through this week. I would be Howard Hughes if my mom wasn't there to help me.

Speaking of Howard Hughes, I actually had the chance to write an opinion paper on Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I wrote on my direct experience with OCD and washing my hands. It was a cool thing to write about, because I haven't ever really put my disorder into words on paper. It helped me to figure out where I am in the situation. I'm just really mild, and I hope that I will NEVER become like Howard Hughes. Locked up naked in a one room apartment with only newspaper scattered on the floor because he is so disgusted with himself. It's true. People can really be like that. It's sad. If you want to learn more about Howard Hughes, there was a movie I once saw that was about him... The Avaitor. He was a really spectacular guy, but like everyone else, had some problems. I can't remember what the movie was like content-wise. I just remember the final lines that closed the movie..."It's the way of the future, the way of the future, the way of the future..."

Maybe I will write a short essay on him. I don't know that much about him... and now I am intrigued.